Monday, June 25, 2007
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3:11 PM
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I have been thinking and planning to implement a system whereby nypmsn can run on. Even if I fail to achieve what I envision, there would already be a written guide of what we did for the future generation to carry on where we left of. They would already be a tangible guide of what made this attempt fail and perhaps allow the new generation to learn from. Documentation is very important for us to analyse what works and what doesnt.
Getting myself very involved in this system making made me realise, I should have a system whereby I should, as an individual, live by. Just the idea of it is making me so psyched up. The idea of moulding myself as a person that I want to be. And the first step in doing that is to label yourself as the person that you want to be. This essentially becomes the identity of you Self. The reason of your being.
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Tuesday, June 19, 2007
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1:33 AM
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I'm 25 and still in polytechnic. "What telah happen?" Well, I took a different route.
Went through mandarin speaking kindergarten in Lorong Ah Soo. Primary School education was in Xinghua. In primary 5, I was in the EM1 class even though technically, I was not qualified as my English marks were band 2. Got band 1 for Maths and Malay. There were vacancies in the EM1 class and hence 12 EM2 stream students were pushed to that class, 51A.
Primary 6 was emotionally scarring. I got a class position of 7 out of 12(among the EM2s). I knew I could have done better. I did not understand the meaning of studying back in primary school. Initially I was told I was promoted to 61A. So, everything was prepared for the new year, with my books having 61A written as my class. I think the cut-off position was from 10. The last 3 students were transferred to EM2 classes.
The new year came and I lined up together with people whom I thought were my classmates. Then, I got pulled away by Mrs Chiam who told me that I was in her class 62B.
The sad part was that it was a mistake and I did not speak for myself. Somehow, 61A had an extra student. As I understood, it was orignally planned that the cut-off position was from 7th position. That's where the complication arose. Instead of pulling from behind, 9th position, I was pulled out. I remember 9th position. It was (name removed). I remember 6th position as well, Linda. I wished I had been the 6th position.
Life went on. I became more and more depressed by not achieving my fullest potential and continued to have a difficulty in my social life. I got 238 for my PSLE and did not get my first choice of secondary school. I got into Zhonghua Secondary. Eventually I dropped out in secondary 3 towards term 3. Repeated secondary 3 the following year and dropped out again towards the second term. Repeated secondary 3 again getting 1st in class for the 1st semester. However, I dropped out again in Secondary 4 having only taken some parts of my O level Malay paper.
Then it was rock-bottom.
Got into NS and took private O levels in my second year of NS. It was night classes by ITE. Took 3 papers. Took another 3 paper the following year and combined the scores to get into polytechnic.
While waiting for my results, I took part-time ITE nitec course in Digital Media Design for 6 months. Eventually I got a place in NYP with my first choice course, Digital Media Design. Alhamdulillah. Poly life... that's another story.
Saturday, June 16, 2007
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9:55 PM
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Getting warmed up. Exposing my thoughts and feelings here feels like testing whether the pool is cold. It's a little cold at first but I get a feeling that I will get used to it.
I grew up feeling inferior most of the times. I always felt that I was different from the people around me. Enough of that...
That being said, I've was trying all my life to figure out what was wrong for me. Alhamdulillah, I have come to accept that it is a challenge for me from Allah. From all the searching, I have found out that my Myer-Briggs personality type is INTJ.
Go make a search on google on INTJ. So that's me I guess.
At the end of it all. People are all different. Sometimes you wonder why would someone behave in a particular way. The answer to this is that people perceive their experiences differently. They face different challenges. They have different priorities.
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Wednesday, June 6, 2007
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6:52 AM
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The decision to blog here wasn't the easiest decision. I am doing it anyway in hope that people will understand me better. Understand the difficulties that I go through. Understand the vision that I have.
This blog will contain mainly my dealings with Nypms. Trying to run it and trying to form Nypmsn. It will also contain some parts of my life if I deem it suitable.
Now, a little bit about myself. My name is Firdaus Bin Ab Latif. I am currently a third year NYP student taking Diploma in Digital Media Design. For those not in the know, I have already completed my national service.
Among the things that my life revolve around is my Sunday Pergas class. Year 3 in SPI. I am also taking a weekly Harfiyah class. That is a 'terjemahan' (translation) of the Al-Quran. Been doing that for more than 2 years now. I also tutor two primary 2 students. Three if counting my own sister.
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