Here's something interesting. I got this from here. Which direction is she spinning? Try making her spin the other way.
click on image to make her dance... blogger can't make her dance
Having troubles.... try to close of one your eyes alternately.
Had fun..... ? Just as some of you can make the figure turn either direction, it seems my life can go any direction from this point in time. Truthfully speaking I don't know which direction is better for me.
Speaking from experience, one thing is certain. I should keep moving just as the figure above keeps spinning. The worst thing I can do now is let the situation paralyze me to a standstill. I shall continue moving forward and praying to be guided to the best path for me.
I did this. That was cool. Had fun. Also did this numbered as 3). That was nice.
Apart from that, I have been freaking out. The pain on my right hand has escalated to a continuous lingering of numbing sensation for the past 2 weeks or so. It gets very demoralizing trying to do assignments with the pain. I probably over-dramatized the whole thing since I don't even know how long this pain will last. Not knowing is the most painful part. I ended up putting off school work hoping to give my hand enough rest. Well, it's still the same. It will seem that I can continue doing the same stuffs, but only I bear my own pain.
This sparked off a thinking spree of "Now what?" One thought leads to another. The pain is just one issues I am facing. But hey, everyone has his own problems or challenges to face.... rite? I ended up contemplating alternative paths of my future. Some of them totally crazy. I suppose I am okay now. It helps to remember that nothing is really yours. Everything belongs to Allah. The fact that I am writing about means that I am ready to face this challenge positively.
Have you figured out what it is? Is it toy bear wearing a snow cap? No, then what is it?
It's a little poster my little sister Ainul Sariyah drew. She just started kindergarten 2 this year. She drew a few copies of this poster and started giving the posters away to everyone in the house. It's actually a drawing of her bottle. She could not find her bottle and decided to draw a 'lost' poster. How creative and positive is that? I treasure this kind of little moments at home. The things my little sisters do can put a smile on my face(unlike now, both of them pestering me as I'm blogging). I usually don't mind but I'll try to put them back in line if I need to. It turns out that she left it at my brother's house. Big bro is still in the phase of moving out bit by bit. My brother has been taking the 2 of them to his house while he attends to whatever a person does before moving permanently. It makes them happy.
It doesn't take much to make little kids happy. So don't pamper them. They'll be happy just to follow me to the library or the shop nearby.
Now she's insisting that I put up a better picture of her drawing of the bottle that she just drew. Both my little sisters love drawing..... too much sometimes. I wonder who I should blame for that?
i actually have 3 younger sisters but the other one is already 20, so whenever i say little sisters, it would refer to my primary 3 sister Siti Nurul Nadia and my kindergarten 2 sister Ainul Sariyah. Younger sisters would refer to all three. I now have a big sister too, just recently. My sister-in-law.
I try to resist writing long entries because most people would probably just scan through it. Sometimes, I just can't resist.
So... I've been trying to live based on this statement, "To truly grow as an individual, one has to expose himself to new experiences and challenge his own limiting beliefs."
I've been doing okay. This is not something easy for an introvert who feels most comfortable inside his own head. Islam is a social religion. To be a good muslim, I have to change. Learning to interact well with other people would definitely benefit myself and insyaAllah to other people as well.
Albeit still learning, it gets easier trying to get myself to be more out there. Exposing myself to different experiences and people only serves to remind myself I have still a lot to learn.
It's always a humbling experience to be around peers who are more knowlegeable in Islam. At times, even demoralizing, just thinking who am I in the eyes of Allah. It still gets me, only for short while... and I see it as a good thing. I see it as something to motivate me to trudge on.
I am done living in self pity and sticking to the status quo. I wasted a lot of my time on that. Islam has taught me to live today better than I was yesterday. And tomorrow to be better than today. This by itself is a powerful and empowering notion. This drives me to do things with itqan. Doing the best that I can in everything that I do.
Whenever I feel that I am way behind compared to my peers, I think of this notion, suck it up, re-check my ego and move on. In fact, I am grateful to have these people around.
How does one keep track that today is better than yesterday? The way that I do it is by keeping a muhasabah book. Muhasabah means introspection. What I do is I will try to review what I have done during the day and write my thoughts on how I could have done things better as a muslim. I will review what I have written and strive to change for the better when a new day comes. Writing works for me but may not work for others. Maybe you could just think it through after your solat. Perhaps even talk it through with a close friend. Whatever works for you.
Whatever works for you..... What works for me will not necessarily work for you. A major part of living a rewarding life is to understand yourself. It took me a long time for me to understand myself. Life has been changing for the better ever since. The search of self-discovery is unique to every individual, i guess. If there are tips that I can give, it would be back to what I said earlier, expose yourself to new things. Esteem problems can be a killer. It can stop you from trying. Start small, keep track through muhasabah. Get more knowledge of every kind. When you need to, seek help from someone who is qualified to give advice.
Last Sunday NurIkhwan organised a hike at McRitchie. Did some ice breaking. Food was good. Got to know more about one another. It was a day well spent. It was more casual compared to the hike NYPMS organized 2 years ago. It gave the participants more opportunity to mingle. The tasks were fun.
I learnt something about myself in the process. A 'weakness' of mine. I suppose I have to learn to conform to the majority when doing certain things.
Being in McRitchie, and the fact that the rain poured around the same time as it did 2 years ago brought back memories. People who were in NYPMS and the people who are in it now. The way that I saw NYPMS and the way that I see it now.
I see myself taking a different role in NYPMS soon and pass it down. There's still some loose ends to tie. I pray that I can pass it down in a good condition.
It has been uploaded and hopefully it will be able to create a ripple, if not, a wave in cyberspace. We learnt a lot from this experience and insyaAllah, we will better our efforts for future videos.
Albeit a little late at releasing the video, I must congratulate the entire team for their enthusiasm especially, and the time that they have put into this video. I feel that it is a decent end-product for a first attempt within a short time frame.
click on image to make her dance... blogger can't make her dance
click on image to make her dance... blogger can't make her dance
