Saturday, December 8, 2012
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3:17 AM
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Please allow me to write to my heart's content in this little dusty corner of cyberspace. The caveat from my last entry has only been because of another black hole of my life. Life is tough, nobody said that it will be easy.
I still do not know where exactly where I am heading towards but surely Allah knows what I do not. The world today is becoming more volatile with every single day that passes, yet I am still trying to figure where I sit in the scheme of things. As a daif insan (weak person), I can only seek guidance from Allah.
I've started working at a new place.
I miss my students.
I can be a better son, a better brother, a better student and a better friend. I would say a better husband too but that has yet to happen. Alhamdulillah, I pray that I will be an uncle soon too.
I feel there is some truth in Maslow's hierarchy of needs. (That's how the secular world sees it. I simply call it sunnatullah.) It is by Allah's will that eveythings has its proper place. Concerns and ambitions has their places too. It was easier for me to put the issue of finding a spouse under the rug when I felt that financially I can be a more stable position. However that stability itself is still an illussion; For I cannot escape from anything if Allah decrees it to be so. But I plan and we plan but Allah is the best of planners.
Saturday, July 30, 2011
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1:59 PM
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This site can do a wonderful job of converting .ttf to .eot in a jiffy. http://www.kirsle.net/wizards/ttf2eot.cgi
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Firdaus
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web design
Friday, January 7, 2011
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2:00 AM
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 My resolution for this year is to look like this. All I have to do is is to lose 238712888kg, buff up, somehow get quick-healing mutant ability and find a mad scientist to conduct adamantium plating on my bones.
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Firdaus
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digital painting
Monday, September 13, 2010
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7:36 AM
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Its a season of celebrations but let's not make ramadan go to waste. I take the momentum of a renewed vigour to scour the lands for a new job. My current contract will expire in less than 3 months. There is an option to extend my contract but I am hoping to move on and finally land a job in my line by then. Working extra hard to finish up my new portfolio site for prospective employers.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
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11:19 PM
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I've been commuting to work and back on the MRT. NEL takes me to my workplace pretty fast. Morning city traffic is always best avoided together with those ERP gantries. All week I've been standing in the train and watch with fascination people who have mastered the art of balancing on the train without holding to anything.
Flat feet hurts and my back suffers when I tried emulating the balancing act. I can do it at the expense of comfort. I'll hold on to railings if I could help it. Crowd sucks and I only got to be seated once which was on last Friday, since work dismisses 30 min earlier.
And so I was seated. I caught my own reflection on the glass panel across me. Never did I realize how bad my posture was. My right shoulder drooped much lower than I thought. Having caught myself, I tried to position myself to a better posture.
I've slacked a lot. I thought I've improved quite a fair bit but that was a reminder of how much further I still need to through. Can I ever dare to dream of the dream job. I rejected a more permanent job prospect. I took up the temp job thinking that I can land that dream job by the end of my contract.
Health is important no matter what. I just have to keep working on it. If it means that I get that dream job by the end of my current contract, that is just the cherry on top of the icing. For certain, I cannot keep forsake steady income while chasing the dream for much longer.
Of course, I am grateful for other things in life. Just that, one's job is a huge chunk of one's life.
Have a blessed month of Rejab.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
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11:38 PM
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Starts work tomorrow. Prays that everything will go well. 6 months contract.
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Firdaus
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work
Saturday, May 29, 2010
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12:23 AM
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Options are good. It gives one a false impression that one has control over his life....at least to a certain extent.
I want to have a real taste of working in the animation industry. Nerve issues(the physical type) is still holding me back. Getting better but still not quite there yet. I am better to a point that I've slacked and not doing the recommended exercises. Its the final mile.
Getting too old to make a name in the industry and yet I still have trouble specializing since I love doing quite a range of stuffs.
I want to start a business, but so does everyone else. It seems that this is the only way to redeem myself after an treading on an unorthodox path. I am starting to feel okay at the idea that I only do design/animation for leisure. What matters most is that I find an outlet to contribute to my personal causes.
Malaysia's Les Copaque would be a no.1 choice but they only accept Malaysians... then again, I haven't really tried. I want to polish up my demoreel within these 6 months and give it a shot at sending out an application.
Option 1 is to take a another diploma with WDA subsidy.... work fully on my demoreel while getting paid some money.
Option 2 is to take up the job at CNB, the pay is not maximal as compared to what I can possibly get in my industry... but I am thankful nonetheless that I got it. 6 months temporary position. With the freedom redetermine my future after that.
Option 3 is to wait and take up a better paying job(pending results from interviews) that may take up my leisure time to do other things.
Its not really options since I'm almost certain that I'll take option 2 with the consideration of other things happening.
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